I’ve experienced the horror of chronic insomnia

If you have problems sleeping, then all you want is desperately to get back to restful sleep and wake up feeling refreshed and energized. Yes, insomnia is a sleep disorder. But what people who haven’t experienced it don’t know is how it affects every part of your life – how insomnia even can take over your entire life.

I know this because I have been there myself. I suffered from chronic insomnia for several years, and I know what you’re going through. I’ve experienced the horror of not being able to sleep. I know how it feels being eaten by worry, fear, and even panic while lying awake in bed all night.

Going from sleeping well to suddenly lying in bed wide awake and confused

When I hear and read about other people’s struggles with insomnia, it still surprises me how easy it actually can go from sleeping well to suddenly lying in bed wide awake and confused. My own painful experience with sleeplessness is a perfect example of that. 

Insomnia can start in so many different ways. Still, in my case, it did not develop gradually over time, it came overnight – one sleepless night in which I was unable to switch off. That night was my first full sleepless night and the beginning of my first long bout of insomnia.

From then on for about two years, I struggled to get on average more than three to four hours of sleep a night.

Your mind is racing with worries and anxiety – and you start to panic

So after that first night, I spent another night awake, and then another, and another… Every night my mind was racing with worries and anxiety. Watching the clock, I was thinking: If I don’t sleep soon, how am I going to get through the day? How am I going to survive at work?

And with each new worrying thought popping up in my mind, I could feel how my throat would tighten, my breathing would speed up, and I could hear my heart beating loudly in my ears. So not only was I wide awake, but I also began to panic. What if I would never be able to sleep again?

The longer I lay there, the tenser I became. In the morning, after a few hours of restless sleep, I felt wrecked and exhausted. I woke up an aching neck and shoulders because I had been holding my body so still and tense all night. 

But insomnia is not just about how you sleep at night

Insomnia also about how you suffer during the day when you struggle to go to work or to participate in social activities. I remember that I started to avoid facing people. At work, I did what I was asked to do and then left as soon as I could. When asked to go out with friends, I said things like I can’t stay long because if I haven’t slept well – and finally, I stopped going out altogether. 

I was really trapped in this vicious circle of poor sleep, heightened stress and anxiety, daytime tiredness, wrong coping strategies, and again poor sleep with such a profound impact on my daily life that I basically stopped living.

You feel lonely and isolated from the world of active, happy people

So I know how insomnia can affect every part of your life. But the biggest challenge is probably the profound loneliness you are experiencing when you have insomnia. You feel isolated, separated from all these active, happy people who get things done. You feel hopeless, thinking that something must be wrong with you. Maybe you’re even jealous, asking yourself why can’t you sleep like a normal person?

If you are struggling to sleep, the chances are that you are also more irritable. You may have trouble with your memory or concentration. This then often leads to worrying if others can see that you are struggling, or that they will even ask you if something is wrong with you. As a result, you give up activities either because you are too tired or because you worry that the activity will make it difficult for you to sleep. 

You might also already have followed lots of insomnia advice, but you still find yourself wide awake at night. You are feeling a mix of confusion, frustration, failure, and anger that keeps you even more awake. 

Insomnia is an immutable monster relentlessly yelling at you

It almost seems as if insomnia becomes your second self – a self-sabotaging ego over which you have no control. During the day, it acts as a steady diet of disapproval, making you feel weak and unworthy. 

And during the night, your sleeplessness turns into an immutable monster relentlessly yelling at you to gain the upper hand, to display its emotional tyranny over you. Yes, the screaming darkness of the night is the right stage for the star attractions of your insomnia demons. This is when they can easily throw their disturbing and terrifying messages at you, over and over again to keep you stuck in a distressing struggle with your unwanted thoughts, emotions, and sensations. The truth is that it’s a hopeless and tiring battle, which ultimately leaves you lonely, defeated and depressed.

I can feel your pain and I’m here to help you

I know that when you deep in the hole of insomnia, it’s tough to see a way out on your own. Your life seems out of control. You feel overwhelmed by fears and worries, experience physical and emotional suffering, and perhaps frustration with traditional treatment approaches for insomnia that often bring more problems than solving them and may even worsen your sleep.

I can feel your pain because I have been there myself. And because I have suffered so much myself, I want nothing more than to help you.

And here’s the thing: after many unsuccessful attempts, I was finally able to self-heal my insomnia. I discovered the most powerful techniques that I know of that helped me and many other people to cure chronic insomnia for good.

And I know if I could do it then you can do it too. This is why I want to give my self-healing knowledge to you so that you too soon will be able to sleep perfectly every night.